Heading Out.

So for the 3rd time in 6 months, I'm moving. All packed already now. Still missing some things that I will buy from Tesco, Shah Alam tomorrow. Going to INTEC. Still quite unsure as to how things will be there despite my Urban Adventure in Shah Alam last Tuesday. Hopefully I get half-decent roommates. I will die if I get a bunch of nerds! Just looking back at all the times in KYUEM. Good, Bad and just plain ugly at times. (It is 4.30AM after all.) It was a good 6 months. But now it's time to move on. Can't keep living in the past can we?

I'm looking forward to it I think. Maybe it'll be better then expected? Well I'll update from there then. Hopefully with some pictures? God knows :P Ciao


Here's a few posts i put up on www.recom.org forum. It's a very interesting forum about Education stuff mainly but there are other categories. This posts are ones that were put up in the "What i don't like about Malaysia?" thread.

I think we don't need a strong military. We don't need submarines (except for scientific research purposes), We don't need fighter jets and most importantly we don't 600 million ringgit commission to Abdul Razak Baginda (the altantuya guy) Company for "service fee" for negotiations with the russians. We don't need to send people to space either while we're at that.

Asean is one of the most stable regions in the world with the last armed conflict in this area being 45 years ago when Indonesia send secret Armed Forces into the jungles in Johor and Sabah/Sarawak. Even then it was the ANZ (Australia and New Zealand Joint Armed Forces) which did most of the fighting. We need a very strong navy though. That is to protect our coastline because we collectively as a country have one of the longest coastline/land mass ratio.

Other countries may spend lots of money on defence because they may see it being very important to them. We should not get involved in an arms race because it benefits no one except the Russian and American arms manufacturers. Anyway who is going to attack us? Singapore?! Thailand? Indonesia? These countries have much more to lose than to gain by attacking us. If Singapore attack us they will not have food or water as nearly all their raw food/processed food and water is imported from Malaysia. Thailand is too busy sorting out their own internal problems to even think about attacking anybody and Indonesia will probably kill their own livelihood if they attack us. ( US$ 2.3 billion was sent to Indonesia last year alone by Indonesians working in Malaysia).

If any of the big powers (US, Russia, China, India, UK etc.) decide to attack us no matter how much we spend on defence we will still lose. Thus defence spending is of little to no use. Better use the money to create a more highly trained, larger, better paid police force. I would much sooner finance 70,000 more cops who work hard than 300,000 army who do nothing with my

Soon after this post another forumer said this. Quote "Alepbing"

this is what i was saying... surrendering before even begin the war.sorry lah, i dont mean to offend you, but somehow you are being typical malaysian by underestimating your own country. sorry.

My reply to him was as such.

Haha i can't resist not replying. I don't underestimate my own country. I think realistically. Don't need to talk about superpowers la even Taiwan's military spending is equivalent to half of our governmental revenue. What do we gain from war? Why should violence even be an option? What has any nation gained from fighting before? It only cause untold suffering, loss of life and the hollow moral victory from fighting is always offset by the pain it causes to all parties involved. If there is one thing that history taught us it's that war always ends up causing another war. Bismarck's War of Unification was a contributor to the First World War, which then became the main reason for the Second World War, which caused the Cold War, during which The Korean War, The Vietnam war, the cuban conflict, the afghan war and untold number of skirmishes occured. The arms buildup from these wars and the bad decisions involved during the Cold war was a main contributing factor to the Gulf War in 1990 and even the current "war on terror". Study history mate, lots to learn there. Which brings me to my final point. What better way to discourage war than to not have an army.

Who do you agree with? Do you think war is essential or do you think war can be dispensed with? Personally you know my views, I feel war is useless and causes more pain than gain. From an economists perspective it fails it's cost/benefit analysis. But i want to know what other people feel about this.


Have you ever been shot in the foot by your own gun?
Have you ever been stabbed in the back by your own knife?
Have you ever been betrayed by the one person you trusted above all else?

Well I have.
I live to tell the tale.
The tale of a foolish lad,
One who thought love is all that is true.
Love is all that is pure,
Love is all that is needed.

One who thought no mountain,
No sea,
No crevice,
Could drown his love.

One who fell in love too soon and paid a heavy price.
One who was shot down like an eagle in a hunter's sight
One who saw pictures.
Pictures that heralded the end

One who's best friends turned from human to glass.
From speech to liquid
From men to whiskey.
For the suffering he endured,
Was one that many had suffered before.
It hardly made it less painful.

This is a reminder.
To all and sundry.
The laws of karma hold strong
As far as this universe remains,
What goes around. Comes around.
Cheat and be Cheated on,
Lie and be Lied to,
Kill and be Murdered,

The Circle of Madness holds.

PS. I did what was right. I cut the rope.


Well finally the phone call i've been dreading/awaiting with anticipation (I still can't make up my mind which one it is) came. I'm going to INTEC. Petronas wants me to do SAM/AUSMAT/Something infinitely easier than A-Levels. I have little love lost for KYUEM as a place but it rips my heart out to lose brilliant teachers like Dr.Foord, Ms.Shree, Mrs.Beadsworth etc. I also feel no joy in losing all the new friends I made here, genuine people who I really love. So this is mainly a shoutout to all KYUEM people Jan 2008- June 2008. Everyone of you played a role in making these 6 months a life-changing experience for me. All of you contributed in many ways to making me who I am today, as they say, What a man is never changes but who a man is never stops changing. I've learnt so much more about myself in these six months than I've ever known. I've learnt so much more about people in general.

Tomorrow I pack my bags and leave. Leave to a new place, a new phase in my life. But whatever happens, I'll never forget those six months. On an unrelated note, KYUEMers who i owe money to, please hunt me down. Anybody here who's doing SAM or has done SAM can I have some advice about the course and miscellanous details etc. See you guys in another life. Bye.


Existentialism –(noun) Philosophy.
a philosophical attitude associated esp. with Heidegger, Jaspers, Marcel, and Sartre, and opposed to rationalism and empiricism, that stresses the individual's unique position as a self-determining agent responsible for the authenticity of his or her choices.

Not a common word in everybody's vocabulary but it's a good one to have. Everybody makes decisions everyday. I wake up in the morning because i decide to go to class. I eat because i decide i'm hungry. As they say a man is the sum of his actions and his actions are determined by his decisions. Once you take a step, there is no turning back and everything you do from then on is clearly your own because no two people travel the same road.

It's time to take leaps in our lives. I've lived on autopilot for far too long. I've neglected people who really understand me for far too long. I've surrounded myself with people who despise me and I think it's time to change. It's time to move on. Time to clear the cobwebs in my head and it's time to live again. Time to start reading again. I've neglected my favourite hobby for far too long and I think it's catching up to me. Life's meant to be lived and make sure you always make the right decisions that take you where you want to be. I don't want to be in a position where I will regret what I do now in 50 years time.

Bye. Think about your life and what you want to do with it.