Betrayal.

Have you ever been shot in the foot by your own gun?
Have you ever been stabbed in the back by your own knife?
Have you ever been betrayed by the one person you trusted above all else?

Well I have.
I live to tell the tale.
The tale of a foolish lad,
One who thought love is all that is true.
Love is all that is pure,
Love is all that is needed.

One who thought no mountain,
No sea,
No crevice,
Could drown his love.

One who fell in love too soon and paid a heavy price.
One who was shot down like an eagle in a hunter's sight
One who saw pictures.
Pictures that heralded the end

One who's best friends turned from human to glass.
From speech to liquid
From men to whiskey.
For the suffering he endured,
Was one that many had suffered before.
It hardly made it less painful.

This is a reminder.
To all and sundry.
The laws of karma hold strong
As far as this universe remains,
What goes around. Comes around.
Cheat and be Cheated on,
Lie and be Lied to,
Kill and be Murdered,

The Circle of Madness holds.

PS. I did what was right. I cut the rope.

News.

Well finally the phone call i've been dreading/awaiting with anticipation (I still can't make up my mind which one it is) came. I'm going to INTEC. Petronas wants me to do SAM/AUSMAT/Something infinitely easier than A-Levels. I have little love lost for KYUEM as a place but it rips my heart out to lose brilliant teachers like Dr.Foord, Ms.Shree, Mrs.Beadsworth etc. I also feel no joy in losing all the new friends I made here, genuine people who I really love. So this is mainly a shoutout to all KYUEM people Jan 2008- June 2008. Everyone of you played a role in making these 6 months a life-changing experience for me. All of you contributed in many ways to making me who I am today, as they say, What a man is never changes but who a man is never stops changing. I've learnt so much more about myself in these six months than I've ever known. I've learnt so much more about people in general.

Tomorrow I pack my bags and leave. Leave to a new place, a new phase in my life. But whatever happens, I'll never forget those six months. On an unrelated note, KYUEMers who i owe money to, please hunt me down. Anybody here who's doing SAM or has done SAM can I have some advice about the course and miscellanous details etc. See you guys in another life. Bye.

Existentialism.

Existentialism –(noun) Philosophy.
a philosophical attitude associated esp. with Heidegger, Jaspers, Marcel, and Sartre, and opposed to rationalism and empiricism, that stresses the individual's unique position as a self-determining agent responsible for the authenticity of his or her choices.

Not a common word in everybody's vocabulary but it's a good one to have. Everybody makes decisions everyday. I wake up in the morning because i decide to go to class. I eat because i decide i'm hungry. As they say a man is the sum of his actions and his actions are determined by his decisions. Once you take a step, there is no turning back and everything you do from then on is clearly your own because no two people travel the same road.

It's time to take leaps in our lives. I've lived on autopilot for far too long. I've neglected people who really understand me for far too long. I've surrounded myself with people who despise me and I think it's time to change. It's time to move on. Time to clear the cobwebs in my head and it's time to live again. Time to start reading again. I've neglected my favourite hobby for far too long and I think it's catching up to me. Life's meant to be lived and make sure you always make the right decisions that take you where you want to be. I don't want to be in a position where I will regret what I do now in 50 years time.

Bye. Think about your life and what you want to do with it.